Everyone's pregnant but me...

Today my friend Stephanie is getting her follie u/s. She's on her 2nd round of Femara. I am hoping that her follie/s are big enough for her trigger shot today so she doesn't have to mess w/it over xmas. I'm hoping to hear from her soon so I can find out how it went.

My other friend, Melissa, is 9 wks PG today. I'm very happy for her, her 1st round of Femara did the trick. She struggled w/IF for a year after getting off Depo. She needed surgery too for endo. We had our surgery on the same day, Sept 1, 2005. Melissa, Stephanie and I all have the same doctor and we have formed a little support group for each other. I'm very glad we have each other.

Yesterday, I was having an ache in my uterus (very strange, I know - it's never happened to me before) so I talked to Melissa and Stephanie about it and Melissa said that was exactly what happened to her around 2-3 dpo and the doc said it was the sperm implanting into the egg. Some girls are more aware of their body and can feel things that other girls can't. I'm hoping she is right, but I don't want to get my hopes up. I am 4dpo today and should be testing in about a week if AF doesn't show up first.

I'm so hoping this is our cycle finally. I just got another PGncy announcement yesterday from friends of ours. So that makes 7 announcements this month alone. It's hard to hear each one and the feeling of being more and more left behind, gets worse.

A few days before Christmas...

I'm here at home, 2dpo on cycle 18 and this is our 2nd xmas w/no BFP or baby. I never thought it would take this long or be this hard. I am on my 3rd cycle of Clomid w/an HCG trigger shot. It's been 5 cycles since my laparoscopy/hysteroscopy surgery to unblock my tubes and get rid of stage 1 endo and a ton of scar tissue from previous abdominal surgeries. I also have a LPD and FINALLY 300mg/day of vit B6 is doing the trick! I am hopeful, just as I am on each cycle, but as each one comes and goes, I am less and less hopeful and afraid to allow myself to hope or get my expectations up just to hurt when AF comes.